so over a month ago I met a wonderful guy. And for the first time in two years I let my guard down and fell in love. He is honest and sweet, caring, loving, affectionate, and he treats me like a princess. I couldn't ask for more. We had a couple of bumps with some arguments but in a way it made us stronger. He is too paranoid bout me cheating on him and being sneaky but I assure him that my ex's would tell him I didn't (unless they cheated on me first or I lied to break up wit someone.) it's hard at times, but I really love this guy and I know he really loves me. And I'm doing my best to have patientce with him as much he tries to have with me. There is alot to get adjusting too and we live with it other now. I'm happy he is not dirty and cleans up after himself atleast. I finally found something real and what I wanted and I wish this could last forever. So I'm not letting go and I'm not going to give in easy and quit. I believe I've learned alot from my past relationships to prepare me for now. Yea the cheating, abusing, and abandonment might hurt me from the past sometimes but it left scars that healed. I've changed alot and I'm not the same person who I was before, I'm a new and better me and I was ready to take on love again. Everyone thinks they know me, know what I want, know what I need but you don't not at all. You think I need you in my life but I don't. I stop talking to some people in my life who were negative or were just a bug in my life. I don't need fake or rude people who have no respect for me or don't act like a real friend. And I'm tired of people thinking they know what my intentions are, I never lie. Another thing that get on my nerves is people who complain too much. I swear if I want to hear someone complain all the time I'll go visit my mother. Instead of complaing how about you go do something for once? but I also want to say this to all of my ex's THANK YOU FOR SCREWING ME OVER, I COULDN't BE AS STRONGER AND WISER AS I AM NOW. YOU MIGHT OF LEFT SCARS BUT THEY HEAL AND MEND IN TIME. I KNOW HOW TO PICK WHAT I WANT AND NEED IN A PERSON WHO TREATS ME BETTER THAN YOU WOULD EVER DO. WHO KNOWS HOW TO SATISFY ME AND ATTEND TO MY NEEDS LIKE A REAL MAN SHOULD. FOR ONCE I AM TRULY HAPPY AND I'm GOING TO BE IN A PEACEFUL RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT ANYONE TRYING TO GET IN BETWEEN. BABY I LOVE YOU AND I CAN't WAIT TO SPEND YEARS WITH YOU. Xoxoxo also there is a lunar eclipse tonight and I'm glad to watch it